04.17.2002 /17:48
My mom (in one of the few pleasant childhood memories I have of her) read aloud to me and my sister the entire Lord of the Rings trilogy when we were young, a chapter or two a night. We liked it when she did all the voice characterizations, especially Gollum. I remember particularly how she did Frodo and Sam, each with a different tone. Later, when I was about 11 I read the books on my own and developed an immense passion for Aragorn. That was my first crush on a fictional (book) character.
My first movie crush was on Han Solo in the Empire Strikes Back. When I saw Raiders of the Lost Ark and realized that Harrison Ford played both Han Solo and Indiana Jones, that was my first actor crush.
My first real life crush was on a boy in my martial arts class when I was about 11-12. He was a year older and much taller. We had to spar once and we both came up with a roundhouse kick at the same time and our feet slammed together and his toenail cut into my foot. I bled all over the dojo floor; I still have the scar.
My first school crush was in the eighth grade (it'd have to be, since I was homeschooled until then!). This guy was a beautiful skater-boy with shaggy hair and golden skin. He was also dating the most popular girl in school.
When I was in high school I was possessed by a wild fever for Byron. I read his poetry after reading Frankenstein in lit class. The introduction talked about how the book came to be written--Shelley, Byron, oh my!--and I looked him up. That was my first crush on a writer.
Sometime after high school I read the Killer Angels and around that same time I rented that Ken Burns documentary about the Civil War and these two things together caused a minor obsession with Union officer Joshua Lawrence Chamberlain. My first crush on a historical figure.
In high school I had a sort-of crush on this guy who I found out later (after graduation) had had a crush on me too. It was never to be though, because he was one of the deathmetal guys who hung out on the smoking stairs and I was a Gap-wearing grade-grubber. We only knew about each other because it was a small school and we'd had a couple of history classes together.
In high school I had another crush, only this one was a doozy. It was on a boy who was a year ahead of me, who was also my best friend in school. We hung out so much my cute 'lil smoking deathmetal guy thought we were dating (or so I found out later). I never let on.
After high school, in my freshman year of college, I started what I consider now to be my first serious relationship (beyond a few nervous pairings in high school) and I stopped talking in terms of "crushes." Now it's "interest," as in, "I'm interested in ___" I suppose that's the grown-up way, but I still think "crush" is a suitable term. That's what it feels like, right?
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